that poem “nothing gold can stay” is beginning to have more and more meaning to me.

today was the last day of my volleyball season….

one of the many lasts i will be experiencing for the next 8 or so months left of school…

i didn’t think i would be so upset. i really couldn’t wait for the season to be over, but the reality of the situation really just…sunk in. once again i was hit with the…oh my god, i’m 1 step closer to graduation.

i cried my eyes out. i wasn’t sad, i wasn’t happy, i was just..crying. i’m still confused by it all, really, but the gravity of today is still processing in my mind.

It was a good season overall…we had something like a 16-4 record, i don’t really remember the exact number…but almost everything was good about it. The team got along really well, sans some of your typical teenage girl drama, we played really well, and it was fun…

but enough was enough. it ended at the right time, not while we were on top, but before we got to the very bottom of the pit. We lost our state playoff game, which we should have won, and we lost our county playoff game, which we could have won. We played well, just not well enough. The teams were easily beatable, but what’s done is done…time to move on.

Now, i have time to breathe. i can go home relatively early (*gasp* maybe even at 3:00!) and just take it easy for a bit. I haven’t yet decided if i will work @ midtown again this year. i kind of miss it, but i kind of don’t want to do it, even though i could really use the $$ (who can’t?)

i dunno…4 day weekend…lots to think about and to process….i’m gonna go now…

wait a minute…i can’t leave this blog without commenting on the election…

as any good 18 year old would, i registered to vote, i voted, i did my part…

but the nimnod won again…

i kind of expected him to win, but i guess i was playing the role of the optimist. I really didn’t want either of the candidates, but since i had to pick one, i went with the lesser of the two evils. Kerry would have done a lot of positive for this country when it come to domestic issues. we have enough going on internationally, it’s time to focus on what needs fixing here at home. As the optimist i am, i can’t help but point out that the stupid no child left behind law will be around for at least another 4 years, unemployment will continue to rise, the number of people here in the US living below the poverty level will continue to rise, not to mention the people that will struggle from paycheck to paycheck because the cost of living is getting out of control. Come on….$2.00+ for a gallon of gas?! We also have to look forward to countless more of our troops dying (i never know if i’m spelling that right) over in Iraq…which i still don’t understand why we’re STILL there! what purpose does it serve!? By the time i am a senior in college, yearly tuition will probably be around $60,000 and a gallon of gas will be around $5.00. The supreme court will be loaded with a ton of conservative justices determined to keep the US a gay-free country who keeps all of the ideals the founders believed in, but at least we’ll still be “one nation, under god, indivisible”…or so they say. i don’t think we could be any more divisible at this point.

but yeah..that’s enough of that…

as a good american, i will of course “respect” the office of president…but i definitely don’t agree with who is sitting in that chair, and most of his actions.

bushy has his work cut out for him…let’s see if he rises to the occasion or flops under once again…